First Day of Classes is OVER!

I successfully completed my first day of classes!  However, Monday, Wednesday, and Friday are my easy days.  I only have two classes plus choir on Wednesdays.  So on those three days I am done by ten  in the morning!  Today I had Composition II with Professor Bryant who is AWESOME!  Then I had History of Civilization II with von Daacke.  I had him last semester so hopefully I'll do well with this course.  Adam and I have both of those classes together which is good because we can help each other study.  My Criminology class was cancelled for tomorrow which is a bummer because I was really looking forward to it!  I'll have to wait until Thursday I guess :)  It feels good to have the first day of classes over with.

Promises

As I sit here in front of my computer, fingers on the keyboard, I'm  not completely sure of what I want to say.  Relationships can be difficult.  Not soley romantic relationships, but friendships too.  There are so many things that can turn a relationship from a perfect one into a disastrous one.  So many things can change that affect how one person feels about another.  Their ideas, their opinions, their taste, their humor, their appearance, their attitude, their motivation, their goals, and so much more.  Besides the things that ARE in our control to keep a relationship happy and healthy, there are outside factors too. 

It seems to me that many people make promises in the early stages of relationships that they are unable to keep.  Some of those things are tiny things like "I promise I will never curse at you", or "I promise I will always give you a massage when you are aching".  However, some promises are almost impossible, and with the exception of  a select few, laughable.  Promises like "I will never hurt you" or "I am going to marry you one day".  Intentional or not, everyone gets hurt one way or another.  Promising someone that you will never hurt them is not only a let down once you are hurt, but it is also a lie. And an obvious one at that.  Now, it seems to me that promising someone you will marry them is even more dangerous and it makes you even more susceptible to heart break.  I have only been in two relationships my entire life and both have had talks of a future together.  I have never had such strong feelings of respect and love than I have with Adam.  And  although I love the feeling of being in love and having someone to share all of your thoughts and desires with, or even just having someone to hold your hand, it is scary knowing how easily a promise like that is made and how easily it can be broken and taken away all in the matter of a minute.  Maybe it is because I have been hurt in the past, or maybe it is because I am a little insecure and untrusting.  But sometimes I can't help but think that guys shouldn't promise you a future like that unless they have a ring ready.  There is so much room for error...so many unexpectd twists and turns that life can bring...so many things that have not been taken into account.

But no matter how scary it may be, it is always exciting to picture the future you've always wanted for yourself, knowing that you have it and are holding it in your arms.  Things like these are a leap of faith, but they are usually worth it.

Honey Balsamic Chicken

This is the first meal that Adam and I cooked together.  We made it in Raleigh AND in Maryland.  Both families loved it! 

The Ride Back To Lynchburg

As you can see, it was a tight fit on the road back to Lynchburg.  Adam and I had so many things to bring back and we barely fit everything into his car!  Adam has a tendency to be in the wrong place at the wrong time when it comes to police officers.  He received his second ticket in just a few months span while we were driving to his house in Maryland in November.  As soon as we hit the road to come back to LC today, we were pulled for making an illegal uturn.  Luckily, the police officer was very kind and understanding and he let Adam off the hook with just a $25 fine.  After that ordeal, we realized that we hadn't had anything to eat all day.  Little did we know that it would be nearly two hours before passing any kind of fast food restaurant.  About ten miles before reaching the Chick-Fila, Adam and I had a laughing fit and we laughed so hard we cried.  I think the absence of food was messing with our brains...we felt very silly and light headed.  We almost crashed the car because of our nonstop laughter!  Finally, about four hours ago we got back to Lynchburg and I am all settled in once again. My bags are unpacked and I am ready for another semester :)

Old Poems

Starting my sophomore year of high school and going through the end of my junior year, I was faced with many obstacles.  I was in the middle of a very unhealthy relationship and I was struggling with an eating disorder.  I am happy and blessed to say that I no longer face any of those issues, but these are a couple of the many poems I wrote to help me cope.

 Cascade

When you’ve said the same words for the hundredth time
And he still doesn’t listen tongues start to get tied
You beg and you plead for some kind of reply
He watches you bleed and ignores your heard cry

Pick up the phone and listen to me
Don’t leave me stranded like a ship set at sea
Hear my words and don’t be afraid
To say what you feel; a sudden cascade

You sit in silence in the dark all alone
Hiding under the covers the reason unknown
You try and think of something to say
Your thoughts and opinions seem to rot and decay

Pick up the phone and listen to me
Don’t leave me stranded like a ship set at sea
Hear my words and don’t be afraid
To say what you feel; a sudden cascade

Your eyes grow small and you cant seem to speak
You hold back the tears, he cant know you're weak
The phone runs dead and so does your heart
Time has ripped through it and torn it apart

Youre left by yourself all alone in a room
No one to save you; just you and your tomb
Your eyes flash back, you shed one last tear
The ending is now, its finally here

Pick up the phone and listen to me
Don’t leave me stranded like a ship set at sea
Hear my words and don’t be afraid
To say what you feel; a sudden cascade

Broken Girl

There is a girl with a smile in the center of the room
She feels so loved so you would assume
She puts on a smile and walks out the door
Put together on the outside, on the inside shes torn

So many people ask her for advice
But when it comes to herself the basics suffice
So surrounded by people yet so alone
She might have tried to fix it if only shed known
Day after day she fakes her way on
Until one sad morning she doesnt wake to see dawn
The news is out, the world sheds a tear
If only shed known how many loved her down here

Possibilities

Hey there everyone :) So I made a "Book of Possibilities" about three years ago after watching the movie "Last Holiday" with my best friend. Some of these are old goals of mine but most remain the same. I'm going to add new possibilities to the list as time goes on and my goal is to do everything on the list before I die! Some of these are stupidly simple...dont laugh! :) If I put a * it means Ive done it.

Visit France*
Go to Ireland
Sleep in a haunted castle*
Climb a mountain
Go skydiving
Go parasailing*
Drink straight from the milk carton*
Eat a whole pizza by myself
Attend a game show*
Send a message in a bottle*
Visit the man who murdered my grandmother in prison
Sing at a coffe house*

Ride in a hot air balloon
Get a tattoo
Attend a major sporting event
Buy stock
Fly first class
Make an EDIBLE dinner all by myself or at least with little help from others*
Learn to play the guitar
Go to the other side of a rainbow and catch the leprachaun
Go on a cruise*
Tell people how I honestly feel about them*
Go snorkeling*
Write a song*
Egg someone’s car
Sneak out of the house
Get a book published
Enter a pie eating contest
Get a poem published
Tee pee someone’s house
Go on a road trip with my best friends
Forgive someone who has hurt me*
Go skinny dipping
Swim with sharks*
Ride a camel in the desert
Get cast in a broadway show*
Be in a real movie*
Write a fan letter
Go clubbing
Be the boss of something
Be part of a jury
Stay out all night dancing and go to school the next day without having gone home
Go to a public place and start singing a song and have EVERYONE join in
Shower in a waterfall
Fall in love and love that person with all of my heart unconditionally*
Take a ride on the highest roller coaster in the world
Spend Christmas in  New York
Overcome my fear of failure
Win big money playing bingo
Go to college*
Buy my own house
Grow a garden
Let someone feed me peeled seedless grapes
Go deep sea fishing
Catch a ball in the stands of a major league baseball game

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